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Today was the day that fans were not expecting. CBS has decided to cancel CSI: Miami after 10 season on the air. The end has come as a surprise to many, but unfortunately, not to me. As I mentioned in previous posts the past two season have been filled with predictable storylines, ridiculous characters and insane time delays.

So while we mourn the end of our show, remember that our show has brought us together as well. Through the show I have met a lot of wonderful people. We could only hope that the show is given a last minute reprieve, but sadly I do not think this will happen.

Goodbye CSI:Miami, thanks for bringing us Adam Rodriguez, Emily Procter, Jonathan Togo and all the others. Best of luck to all of the cast and crew on your future projects.


ok, so read if you’d like, but this has been written for my journalism class.

CSI: Miami aired what could have been its final season finale on April 8th, 2012. What started as an almost promising season led to utter disappoint among most of the fan base, myself included.

After CSI: Miami was moved from its comfortable Monday night time slot; it was shuffled to Sunday nights at 9 p.m. central time. What has happened in the past two seasons has been nothing but frustration for fans of the long time running show. The show has been delayed by up to 51 minutes due to football, NCAA Basketball and golf. Golf, really?

Truth be told, the show has lost a lot of its magic. Instead of focusing on the team as a whole, it has turned into the Horatio Caine (David Caruso) show. Yes, I understand that he is the lead in the show, but not every show should revolve around him saving all of the pretty young women and men in the show. David Caruso is good at showing his characters emotions, but at the same time his ridiculous one-liners have become more of a joke than anything else.

The end of season ten brought yet another predictable story line to its final end. Ryan (Jonathan Togo) was in trouble again, he fell for the girl who just used him again and in an all too quick conclusion he was exonerated from the act he had been so quickly accused of. So what does that say about the writers? Have they finally run out of ideas to come up with?

The end of season 10 also brought no resolution to a storyline that many fans, including myself, have become emotionally invested in. The storyline between Eric and Calleigh (Adam Rodriguez and Emily Procter, respectively) has been brewing for quite some time. It started in the middle of season five, reached its peak at the end of season seven only to be yanked away during Rodriguez’s shortened time on the show in season eight.

Many fans, me included, are frustrated with the inconsistency of the relationship. Producers and writers of the show have long been telling fans that a resolution will come, yet to this day we have yet to see any type of progress with the relationship. For Procter’s character, adopting children is a big step, yet when offered help to raise the children, she brushes it aside due to the inconsistency of the relationship between Eric and Calleigh. This is where it gets frustrating because we know that these two characters belong together, yet they cannot seem to get it together.

So where do we go from here? If the episode that aired on April 8th was indeed its final episode, it ended poorly. Instead of bringing the team closer together, it seemed to show them farther apart. I, as a fan, hope that CSI: Miami gets its final season, because they deserve it. The show used to be the most popular show around the world, but quickly fell due to poor writing, poor storylines and poor use of the talented actors on the show.

My advices to the writers, for what it is worth, take a look around you. The world is full of stories just begging to be told. You just have to be smart enough to put your own twist on the ending.

Seven months after posting my last blog on the past, I came face to face with him yesterday. Everything I told myself that I wasn’t going to do, I did. I got a message from his sister, telling me that he was in town and that he missed me. I didn’t hesitate to pick up the phone and call him. I swear I am the biggest fool on the face of the planet.

I don’t know why I called him, I don’t know why I agreed to see him. Part of me wanted to see how he was, the other part of me wanted him to see that I had survived all that he had put me through.

In one day, this man has completely turned my life upside down. I have been out of my mind all day. I haven’t been able to concentrate all day. Why did this have to happen again?


So for now, I guess it is going to be in God’s hands. I know it is all part of his master plan for both of us. I just wish that the ultimate master plan for him didn’t include me, my heart can’t handle the pain again.

There comes a point in a relationship, any relationship that the end is inevitable. It could be the end of a friendship, first love, second love, marriage etc. My point came 4 years ago. Let me tell you, it wasn’t easy. Had you asked me 5 years ago, this was the man that I had wanted to spend the rest of my life with. He was my best friend, but I wasn’t his. I thought he cared for me as much as I cared for him. I would have done anything for him, and I did. I was foolish enough to let him take advantage of my feelings for him. Looking back, I was an idiot. I almost lost everything I worked hard for because of him. And for what, a man who didn’t know how to appreciate the woman who loved him. He told me lies. My favorite ones were I love you & if it was just me, I would have left a long time ago.

It wasn’t easy at first, I couldn’t go anywhere without thinking about him, or something reminding me of him. I couldn’t hang out with certain friends because every time I saw them, they would bring him up. I hate that our friendship suffered because of it, but I couldn’t put myself through that pain anymore. I had to choose between the memories and myself, I chose me. I had to find a way to move on, and unfortunately, that included leaving them behind, along with the memories.

I’m not going to lie, sometimes it does hurt. Every now & again, I will see him in my dreams. I hate to admit it, but I wonder if he thinks about me. I wonder if he regrets what happened. I wonder what will happen if I ever see or hear from him again. Would I even be able to see him without feeling so much pain? I really hope that I never have to put myself through that type of pain again. My heart could only take so much.

I hear your name without cringing, I can look at your picture without shedding a tear. But I can’t possibly allow you to keep that little part of my heart that you claimed so long ago. I found the good in goodbye. It was when you left that day 4 years ago. I thought I would never recover from the pain, yet here I am. It took me a while to realize it, but you were never good enough for me. I deserve to have someone love me as much as I love them. So, in the end, I want to thank you. You gave me something that I never thought I would have again. You gave me the chance to open the door to that everlasting, once in a lifetime love. You were lucky to have me in your life and somewhere deep down in that heart of yours, I hope you know that. Because when you need someone to lean on, or need someone to get you out of trouble, know that I won’t be there.

We could have had it all, we could have been happy. YOU didn’t know how to appreciate that and for that, I thank you.

I’m okay, finally. The pain comes and goes, as do the memories. But know this, I am strong. And because of you, I am a little bit stronger.

Where do I even begin with this. CSI: Miami is one of my favorite shows and this season, well let’s just say it wasn’t up to par. I remember the summer before last and how upset I was that Adam Rodriguez was not coming back to the show full time. But still I kept up with the show. I hated not seeing my favorite character on TV, and had hoped they would come up with some kind of decent explanation as to where he was. Of course, I was wrong. But I kept on watching, I needed to support my show. Season 8 ended with the worst kept secret on television. We all knew who wasn’t coming back and I was perfectly fine with that. Fast foward almost 4 months and a time change to the season premiere of season 9. We all had such high hopes for the season. The team was back together, Eric & Calleigh were going to get through the troubles they had and Horatio would go on to save all of Miami’s prettiest young ladies.

It was announced last summer that CSI: Miami’s lead actress Emily Procter was expecting her first child. As a fan, you couldn’t help but be excited for her. As a television watcher, one couldn’t help but wonder where this would take her character. Not that we were expecting everything between Eric & Calleigh to be magically fixed, but we didn’t expect this….

Wait, hold on a minute…what the hell just happned here?!!

Are you kidding me. I love you like family….yeah that made no sense at all. Now I understand the writers decision to not include Emily Procter’s pregnancy into the storyline. It would have been too soon, they weren’t sure where exactly they stood with their relationship, yadda, yadda, yadda. Ok but really, I love you like family. Did someone seem to forget this scene…



Because, you do NOT do that with someone you love like family. That’s just a little creepy. I was really mad about the turn in the storyline. This storyline is one of the reasons I tune in, so needless to say, the magic was gone. But this doesn’t even begin to explain the downward spiral CSI: Miami seemed to be on this past season.

Now we all know that Horatio is known as the savior of all the pretty girls and all of the children in Miami, but this has really got to stop. There has to be another person who is capable of handling this as well. Horatio has also seemed to have taken a turn to the dark side. He has intimidated & threatened suspects. It has been implied that he has crossed the line more than once when it came to those suspects. So where does that leave us, is he above the law? What if Eric, Ryan, or Walter did that? Would the audience be as understanding or would they criticize the them for acting outside of character. When, if ever, will Horatio be confronted with a suspects accusations? Will the team support him, or will they turn the other way.

This season also saw a lot of characters who had been in the background. I really don’t mind, most times. I happen to like Ryan, Walter & Frank. Natalia, well…let’s just say she is not my favorite character. Nothing against the actress, I think Eva La Rue is a good actress, but I am used to seeing her in the background. I’ll go out on a limb and say that its the way that the writers are portraying her that make me not like her. I really do hope that the next season utilizes her a little better. I really don’t mind seeing her in the field, but she is making rookie mistakes. She has done this job long enough to know that she has to be a little more vigilant, especially when she is out in the field.

As the screen faded to black for season 9, we saw our hero (Horatio) and Natalia in danger. So where do we go from here? Do we miraculously show up an hour later where Horatio & Natalia have survived yet another traumatizing ordeal. Will we ever get to see the unstoppable Horatio Caine with an injury that is not staged? There are two things that I want to know though…

1. When will we get to see Eric & Calleigh get back to where they belong. Because, c’mon these two belong together.

2. Will Adam Rodriguez get to write & direct another episode, and if so, can I play the victim? 🙂


Season 10 of CSI: Miami premieres on September 25 at 10p/9c.

Here’s hoping that this season brings us some answers and some even better story lines. Take a look around you CSI: Miami writers, the world if full of crazy people and crazy things happening, one would think that this would inspire you.






Ok, so this isn’t going to be a post about me, but a post about one of my favorite shows.

Anyone who knows me, knows how much I love my crime dramas. I am not ashamed to admit how much of a TV nerd I am, especially when it comes to CSI: Miami, Bones, Law & Order: SVU, Criminal Minds….you get the point right.

These shows affect me, they make me laugh, they make me cry (yes, Miami & Bones, I am talking to you). They are strictly for entertainment purposes. Television isn’t my whole life, but right now its probably the only part of my life that I have  control over.

So lets get to the purpose of my post. My love for one of my favorite shows, and my frustration towards those who openly bash my favorite characters.

I love CSI: Miami and all of its cheesiness. I have met (on twitter & in RL) a lot of great people because of this part of my life. We can get together & discuss the good, the bad & the ugly. Everyone is entitled to their opinions, but when does that person’s opinion become the opinion of the entire group?

Yes, I do realize that not everyone was thrilled when Adam Rodriguez signed back on to the show. I, for one, was ecstatic. The show was lacking something last season when he was missing. There are some people who don’t like the character he plays, which is fine. I am not expecting everyone to share my love for him. But when does it get to be too much? Why is it ok for some people to openly bash him (both the character & the actor) and then be offended when someone says something bad about one of the characters they like? But here is the part that gets me, if you don’t like the character, why must you continually bash him. Ok, we get it, you don’t like him, MOVE ON!

These are characters that we have all come to love (or hate). We, as fans, only have so much of a say in a storyline. To say that two characters have taken over a show is absolute nonsense. Again, speaking as a fan of the two characters in question, I didn’t see it as them taking over story lines. Yes, maybe those episodes were a little more focused on them, but I didn’t see it as ALL about them. Seeing the two characters in question establish a relationship was important to the story. This happens in real life, the people you work with are important to you, they are like family and yes, sometimes those relationships develop into something deeper. We see a connection between two people, and we expect to see that relationship develop. For anyone who has watched this show from the beginning, we have been hoping for this since the beginning of the show (or if you are like me, the first time I saw them together). I am not ashamed to admit that, yes, I have a vested interest in the “personal” lives of two television characters. Yes, I take offense when one person thinks that he or she can speak for the entire collective. Yes, I take offense when people bash my two favorite characters. Yes, I am mad as hell that the writers broke up Eric & Calleigh. Do I want Eric & Calleigh back together, yes of course I do. Would I love to see an ENTIRE episode dedicated to them, once again, of course, preferribly with Eric shirtless…but I digress. I know that the writers can’t make all of us happy, hell they can’t even make half of us happy.   I used to love going to one of the show’s forums, now its just a joke. I understand that people are unhappy, but again, don’t blame the actors, blame the people who need to be blamed. The writers & the producers are the ones who have the final say about the show.

I watch CSI: Miami for the silliness of Horatio Caine, for the beeuty that is Emily Procter, for the HOTNESS that is Adam Rodriguez, for the laughs I can get from Jon Togo & Omar Miller. If you don’t like it, just don’t watch it.




Last week was one of complete anticipation. One of my favorite times of year, next to Jazmin starting school and the start of the new television season. It’s time for FOOTBALL baby! More importantly, Cowboys football.

I am not gonna lie, football is my favorite sport. I live & breath for the NFL between August-February.

I’ve been a Cowboys fan all my life. Some of my favorite memories growing up was watching the Cowboys win their Super Bowl championships with my dad & my brother. Now as an adult, I still look forward to watching Sunday football with my dad. Every weekend we go to my dad’s and watch the game of the week. Unfortunately because we live in Chicago, we usually have to watch the Bears or the Packers.

This weekend the Cowboys are playing against the “hometown team” (I use that term very loosely, I am still a TX girl at heart).  The Cowboys (0-1) will be playing the Chicago Bears (1-0) at home. By some miracle, the Bears were able to pull off a win last Sunday, that is still being talked about. A new rule gave the Bears a needed break against the Lions (0-1). In my opinion, the Lions should have had the touchdown and the win, but what do I know, I am just a girl and a fan. I’ve never had much faith in the Bears and apparently, neither do my coworkers. One has the Cowboys winning 17-14, the other has 28-9.

After Monday’s upsetting loss, the Cowboys are looking to come back stronger than ever. They made mistakes, penalties cost them a lot of missed opportunities. The Cowboys need to learn from their mistakes on Monday night and regroup. They have to play like they want to be the first home team to host a Super Bowl. We have the key players in place to make that happen, they just have to believe in themselves as much as we do.

Win or lose, I am a Cowboys fan for life.

Let’s do this! I can’t wait for gameday!!!

Music Education

My daughter recently informed me that she wanted to enroll in her school’s band program next year. As a former band member myself, I couldn’t be prouder. I absolutely loved the music education that I received throughout middle school and high school. I don’t think I can remember a happier time. There was something about the sound that came out of a horn, a saxophone, or a flute that just sounded absolutely beautiful. Even now, every time I hear one, it brings back all those memories.

According to the VH1 save the music website, there are numerous studies and various research programs that show that students who enroll in music programs in school are more likely to stay in and perform better in school. Learning to read music teaches a child the importance of keeping time and helps them excel in math.

Along with learning comes the opportunity to travel. When I was in 8th grade our district sent a group of us to Washington D.C. for a week. We were able to tour Washington D.C. while performing at some of the most beautiful sites in D.C. One of my best memories was performing in front of the reflecting pool near the Washington Monument.

For the first time in 5 years, the East Aurora High School Band left last Sunday to  perform at the Disney World  & Universal Theme Parks. For some of the kids in the East Aurora Band program this is their first opportunity to go to Orlando to visit Disney World, for  others its an experience of a lifetime. There is nothing like playing in front of an audience, knowing that you have brought a little music into someone’s day.

Support your children if they want to pursue music, it will be one of the greatest experiences of their lives. Support your local school districts, we are quickly running out of funds for the arts in public schools. I can’t think of my daughter missing out on the experience that my brother & I had in  middle school & high school.

For me, I am proud to say that next school year, I will be the proud parent of a flute player. I would have preferred her play the sax, but I guess that’s just the sax player in me.

Stop the Violence

I went to a wake today. I didn’t know the young lady who died, I knew her brother & sister. I felt that it was my duty, as their friend, to go and show my support for them & their family.

She was 20 years old. She was a mother, a sister, a daughter. Now she has become a statistic. A young woman, fatally stabbed at a party. One night changed the lives of so many people. She had gone out to for a night of fun. There was a fight, and in all the chaos, she was stabbed multiple times. She was found in a vehicle, unresponsive. She later died at a local hospital.

I don’t understand what pushes people to violence. Are we so desensitized by violence that it seems to be the only answer? Will our children ever know a world without violence? Our children our dying and it seems like nothing can be done to stop it. When will the violence end? How many more mothers have to bury their children before someone puts and end to it? I know there is not an easy answer to this, but it has to start somewhere. We are a product of our environment, unfortunately, sometimes this environment includes violence on a daily basis. I don’t have an answer, but as a mother myself, I am afraid for my daughter. I can not imagine the pain of losing a child. I’ve lost friends and friends have lost friends because of violence, I know it doesn’t get any easier.

I don’t know what to say to them. The words, I am so sorry for your loss mean absolutely nothing coming from me. As I stand there and embrace my friend, this man who I have known since I was 10, I can only hope and pray that God will bring him & his family through this pain.

Think twice, we only have one life to live. Love each other enough to know that violence is not the answer. A mother should never have to bury her child and children should never have to grow up without their mother.

Hopelessly addicted to twitter

Social networking is the hottest trend right now. I, myself, am addicted to it. I hate it sometimes because I feel that it takes a huge chunk of my life. But it gives me an escape from reality. Right now, twitter is my social networking drug of choice. I love twitter; it makes me laugh, a lot. I have a group of tweet-buddies who I am sure I will most likely never have the pleasure of meeting in person, but they give me a reason to smile every day. Unfortunately, there is a downside to social networking…some things just can’t be kept to ourselves.

I used to have a friend who thinks she is just a little better than everyone else. I don’t know if it’s just the way she comes off when she says things or if she is just that way. She says things to make herself look important or to try to impress certain people. I went along with it for a little while, wondering what she would say or do. But then, something happened. She deleted me…imagine the horror. Ok so maybe I am being a little over dramatic, but I have absolutely no idea what I did wrong. Maybe she didn’t like the things I was saying or maybe she didn’t like the fact that I was talking to other people more than I was talking to her. Whatever the reason is, I guess it’s just a side effect of social networking. I guess I wasn’t who she expected, or maybe I just wasn’t cool enough for her world…

“Everyone in life is gonna hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain.” ~ Erica Baican

A few years back someone I loved broke my heart into a million pieces. Unfortunately, he was everywhere. Myspace was his social networking drug of choice. So instead of trying to get over my broken heart, I made it worse. I would look at his page constantly and then make the mistake of looking at his girlfriends page. That made it even worse. Myspace can be childish, especially if you know that someone is looking at your page. We purposely put stuff out there just to get a rise out of people. I hate to say it, but I am guilty of it. I put things on my page hoping that either he or she was looking at it. I was being childish, yes I know, but I wanted him to hurt as much as I was. Turns out I was only hurting myself. He didn’t love me, he never cared. I was the one holding the pieces to my broken heart and I was allowing him to keep hurting me.

A few months after we broke up, I met someone new, coincidentally on Myspace. I guess I was so happy about trying to get over my broken heart that I didn’t care.. He seemed great, at the time. Things were going good or at least I thought. We were together every weekend; he was introducing me to his friends. But of course, all good things must come to an end. I went on vacation for a week…and come home to find out on Myspace that he was with someone else. I wasn’t his only one, I guess I had always had a feeling…but like I said, I wanted to get over my last relationship and I thought this was the best way to do it. It’s been almost two years since my Myspace breakup…and truth is I’ve never been happier.

When it comes to social networking it can either be a blessing or a curse. I have met a lot of great people online. I have my “groups”, our CSI: Miami fanatics and my twitter crew in Texas. I love reading what people have to say. Unfortunately, there is also that downside to social networking.

They say curiosity killed the cat, well in my case curiosity killed my happiness. Instead of focusing on me, I focused on what someone else was doing and saying. It’s a nasty trend, but I know that I am not the only one who does this. So my advice, for what it’s worth, if you don’t like what people are saying delete them from your life (or myspace, facebook, twitter).  Ultimately we are in charge of our own happiness, not our social networking groups. They just make our life just a little more interesting.